Christmas trip

Welcome back!

I hope you and your family are well. As the festivities fade, reality resumes with school and work commuting. Embracing the streets of Madrid in my sales role, I find joy in exploring lesser-known corners.

Spent Christmas holidays  in Portugal and Switzerland, a mix of serenity and challenges. Traveling with my daughter and ex-wife revealed complexities. Avoiding her since June became challenging during the holidays, testing my ability to normalize our relationship. While she attempts closeness, I struggle to move forward from the divorce. The idea of seeking someone new feels like betrayal, and I'm still grieving. The recent trip stirred unresolved emotions and lingering grudges, highlighting the difficulty of letting go.

Upon returning, my daughter and I traveled to Switzerland to visit my family. The days were delightful until the return journey. Opting for an upgrade enhanced our trip back, making it much more enjoyable.

Returning from Switzerland, the upgraded trip triggered hurtful comments from my ex-wife. Reflecting on her persistent criticism and negativity, I've realized the toll it takes on my well-being. It's painful, like a constant poison. I've decided to distance myself; avoidance seems the best option to heal and move forward.

Recognizing the toxicity, friends have rightly suggested moving on, considering the impact on our daughter. The future holds uncertainty, but perhaps this is the year for positive change. 

Take care, see you on the next one

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