Absent

 

Hello Hugo, it's been a while. How are you?

I've been grappling with loneliness lately. Despite living in a bustling city with a home, a car, and a motorcycle, I find myself with only a handful of true friends. It feels like everyone is distant, and I struggle to connect with others. Starting conversations often leads to disinterest, and it seems like nobody cares about my problems.

My current job demands focus and top-notch customer service. Resolving on-site issues is crucial, impacting lives, jobs, meetings, and holidays. Ironically, it keeps me distracted, but the loneliness persists.

Reflecting on dismissive attitudes in the past, I realize I may have made others feel the way I do now – irrelevant to their future. The prevalence of online posts showcasing perfect lives exacerbates this sense of isolation. I seldom contribute, only capturing special moments with my daughter.

Navigating life alone, I experience both sadness and joy. The loneliness is palpable, especially when entering a silent home. By the way, I'm having some coffee; would you like some?

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