Two in the morning!

 Hello there, it's two in the morning, and I'm wide awake! It's Friday, and  I'm wondering what to do. Should I stay up a while longer or go to bed? It's Friday evening. I should be out going crazy and having a good time, right? Well, it's not a thing I would normally do for those who know me very well, and under the circumstances, even less inclined to do it. 

It's been a year of transformation, adaptation and it seems that it is frozen in time. Since this pandemic has been around us, there has been no "normal" again, whatever "normal" meant anyway. 

The people I've met and worked with for the last 8 years are not present anymore. Maybe they have never been, to be honest, we would just get along as it seems. Probably the foundations were not strong enough, and after leaving, they just crumbled. 

It's hard to think that sharing your life with the people who are with you would create bonds and the intimacy to become good friends for the most part of the day. The working environment sure promoted that, or at least it made it look so. 

As an immigrant, I'm used to living away from family members, and I understand that distance creates a certain disconnection from your past. One is away from friends and family, and that creates a void in those relationships. But when you're at work, it's a totally different dynamic. Work brings people together, sometimes it even opens the opportunity of relationships to start, maybe because of the amount of time you spend there or the tensions and the hardship of tasks bring people together and more intimacy. 


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